There are several approaches to work with disturbing emotions.
One is to abandon these emotions; another is to explore them.
To close yourself off to your feelings obstructs a healthy openness in mind and heart. It denies you the potential insights that emotion might offer.
Don’t you want to use disturbing emotions as a beacon? A signal that something of significance is going on that you need to understand?
Are you not tired of repeating self-defeating behaviors?
By letting these emotions once again dictate how you behave.